i want to do nice things for myself
- i want to prepare myself a delicious meal from scratch, without once worrying about the inevitable cleanup, so i can fully enjoy it
- build a fort from pillow cushions, or a tent from sheets, and light it with candles
- read books all day
- turn my cell phone off
- write about all the things that make me sad, happy, angry, hurt, fearful, excited, nervous, giddy, hopeful
- laugh without reservation
- twirl around in a pretty dress on a summer day
- swing in a tire swing
In case you guys, you know, forgot what I look like. Or care.
seven and a half months of sobriety were said goodbye to.
evidently, when shit goes from bad to worse, all my strength goes away. going to the police station tomorrow morning for my interview, where they are going to make me face my attacker so i can try to get him to incriminate himself. followed by school then eight point five hours of work. (if any of my followers/anons want to talk about drug or alcohol addiction or sexual abuse, i’m all ears. we all need a little help sometimes, even if it’s just someone to talk to. i’ve been there.)
tomorrow will also be day one of sobriety, again.
GPOYW - San Francisco (messes up my hair) Edition
GPOYW: Because I Haven’t Posted One in a While Edition
to sleep at night, i always listen to the spill canvas’s “lullaby” or eminem and rihanna’s “love the way you lie.” is there a conflict in that?
“I’m sorry, but you’re just too awesome to pass on”
best compliment I’ve gotten in a long, long time. too bad a ton of drama piggybacked on it.
I’m pissed off that it still hurts when he talks like that to another girl
Why can’t I not care when I really don’t want to care. Not like I make sense or anything. Excuse me while I go throw up.
This is my kitty. Her name is Puppy. She is adorable. I love her. I also talk like I’m four.
Half of me is building that wall and being strong and finding a way to keep my life together all by myself. The other half wants to find someone that I can pour everything about my life to and have them love me and take care of me.
